Tuesday, March 29, 2005

Action-packed

I haven't blogging for quite some time. (urh, like you guys didn't know righhhht. ) I really want to. but I was busy. Many times I find the craving to blog, but I was simply too busy. with these things:


1. ONE helluva paper for exam - which I was given an ample week to study for yet, fared pathetically because of the lack of faith in the lecturer and tutor who gave contrasting advice.

2. TWO evenings of mallet making and tomtoms wrapping right after my exams, that led to more tomtoms wrapping during the two actual days of Easter drama production 2005

3. THREE approximate hours of rollerblading at East Coast Park with Carryn, Esther and Dan today.

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1. Media Management Principles, what a professional and cheem name. But professional and cheem were certainly not the words to describe my lecturer and tutor. I was stupid enough to actually bother to actually take my own stride for this paper. In the end, what my tutor mentioned would come out for the paper really did come out. UGH. It's so sick. Nevertheless, it's all over. THE dreaded term IS OVER!!!!!!! I'm just crossing my fingers before the results come out.

2. The next day right after the paper, it was serving God all the way man. Reporting early afternoon at my wonderful home at the extreme western area of Singapore, I was confused and filled with bewilderment. "AM I really gonna serve at children's church?! I mean like, me??!" I am one of the last people on earth who actually scares kids and make babies cry when I don't mean to. Anyway, I survived it all. Through the grace of God, none of the preschool kids that saw me were scared or did any of them cry.. In fact, they were so cuteeeee and friendly and they just tug at your shirt and go "Hi auntiee!!" (yea, "auntie" abit to0 old for me.. but it really melts your heart to see the lil tots run around happy and excited!)

OOHHH! and yes the best part was to catch James in action! Other than singing as a backup vocalist for praise and worship, he also acted in the Easter drama as a toy cowboy. Quote of the play from him, (said with much enthusiasm, eyes and mouth openwide), "Look! Mr. Toymaker made me a new pair of boots!" hahahhaah.. ok.

Yes, the story is about the benevolent Toymaker who in his fullness of creativity, created many many toys, including the cowboy, the ragdoll, the ballerina doll, the clown, and the evil ice queen. Though each of these toys were not perfect, Mr. Toymaker continued to love them all still. The toys were happy with the way they were. However, one day, the wicked ice queen came by and told them of a better place to be, and told them that Mr. Toymaker does not love them at all. In their ignorance, they wondered about the magical place that the ice queen talked about and considered following the ice queen there. The toys left Mr. Toymaker.
They travelled a long journey. Initially, they were all excited and hyped up during the journey, singing songs and having much fun. Days and months past... and the weather began to turn cold. By this time, they were shivering and struggling to move even an inch. Soon, they reached their destination. It was not the colourful and lively place they had imagined. It was freezing cold and there was strong chilly winds blowing all the time around the icy terrain. The toys then realised they had been deceived. However, by now, it was too late for them to turn back or do anything; all the toys were trapped at the Ice Palace under the power of the ice queen.
Meanwhile, Mr. Toymaker felt very hurt to find out that his toys had all left him. His son consoled him, and assured him that he will help him to find the toys back. The only way to find the toys, however, meant that Mr. Toymaker has to sacrifice his son. Because of his love for the Mr. Toymaker, the son agreed to sacrifice himself.
At Ice Palace, the toys became hungry and lifeless and angry. They fought amongst each other food and argued about who caused them to be in this miserable state. At this point, a toy soldier appeared and brought them presents. Their faces lighted up to realise it was Mr. Toymaker's son, here to bring them home! They were overjoyed. and then.. Everybody lived happily ever after... except the evil ice queen.. that was banished in the washing machine.

It is truly a meaningful story. We are like the toys that God made. All of us are different and unique. As the saying goes, the grass is greener on the other side, we succumb ourselves to the lies that the devil tell us and more often than not, we give in to temptations and follow the deceptions of the devil. The devil, knowing that he has already been condemned and would spend his life eternally in hell, would search for ways to deceive us so that he could catch a few of us to accompany his lonely days in hell. But God is faithful and his love for us so great, that He was willing to send His son to bring us back to Him.

-end of preaching- =P

Whoops. and that was not even day one of serving God. Later at night, it was all about making mallets on the the drumsticks and wrapping the drum toms. That was the task for the next 3 days. We wrapped and we wrapped. It got so sick of seeing white masses of cardboard all the time. ahhaha. Anyway, I enjoyed myself in the midst of all the shouting ," Penknife!" "Puncher!" "Scotchtape!" "Scissors!" and the developing of calluses on my fingers. It was really a privilege to play this minute part in the Easter Drama. As I began to watch the drummers play on the stage, I felt so proud that my work of wrapping and tying and pasting and punching had been put to good use! (haha. I know that sounds stupid. )

And that was Easter for me.

3. Rollerbladinggggggg was fun! The blades were good and comfortable too! 7 bucks for the whole day. Wooh. Anyone up for blading soon?


Wednesday, March 16, 2005

feeling thankful.

feeling thankful.
putting down the phone, an unconscious smile I brought with me

feeling thankful, to have him in my life.

it was not the longest conversation, neither the most interesting of all

just a word of concern in my job-hunting desperation

no it isn't the pretty boy that flutters my heart

it isn't the punk that shares my liking in the kids who get up*

19 years my senior, he's seen me through the phases

he's my brother, whom I've learnt to love and from whom I learnt to enjoy the company of family togetherness.

*refers to The Get Up Kids


I really should be studying. The only fruitful thing I did today was to go to school to do a 400 word chinese essay for the China CDS programme selection. I need to NOT procrastinate anymore.

Sunday, March 06, 2005

Healing is for today

Healing is for today

I experienced the power of the Lord today. Been suffering from ailments in my left knee joint for quite some time due to old injuries from basketball..On certain days I would be fine, having the ability to run and jump and hop and race down stairs with no difficulty at all. But on some days, it was impossible for me to even go after a bus that was less than 8 metres away. For the past few days, the knee pains struck. I was unable to race down the stairs from my block like I always do. Well, I still went with Karen to her first workout at California gym anyways. Ran, (funny but I still ran a effortless 2.4km), did some weights. (I think I ought to punish myself cos I shouldn't even run with a condition like that. It probably causes my knee to deteriorate.)

Anyway, my knee continued to hurt after gymming and walking down each step summoned an ache that warned of a worn out knee. Finally, we were at church and having praise and worship. It just felt weird, cos I wasn't able to jump like other days. The knee was a hindrance; it kept me from going high singing praises to the Lord. In my heart, I secretly hoped that God's power would move and heal me by the end of service. Goodness. It turned out today's message was about healing, to prepare for the upcoming Benny Hinn crusade this following weekend.

At the end of service, Pastor Kong wanted us to pray for healing for the people around us. I lifted my hand so that I could be prayed for. Fanny and Karen and others all came to me and laid hands on my knee. We started praying in tongues and immediately I felt the power of God fall upon me. I began to cry and I felt my left knee was cold. I was excited and truly touched by the presence of God as the tears continued to flow. I was positive God had healed me. After their hands left my knee, I bent my knee. It didn't feel like before, at all! I jumped. I COULD JUMP. Praise the Lordddddd!!!
It was wonderful. God moves. In the atmosphere of faith. Thank you Jesus. For by your 40 stripes, all diseases has been borne, and now healing shall come!

Wow. If this happened in a normal service, then there's more to come next week when Benny Hinn comes. I can't imagine. The power of God will be manifested before our eyes. People, if you need healing, or know of somebody that does, do come down to the Indoor Stadium this Friday or Saturday night. I can't wait.

Wednesday, March 02, 2005

Don't smoke it breaks my heart

Don't smoke it breaks my heart

I finally understood why as a kid I used to complain against my Dad to my mom when he smoked. Not because I wanted to get favour from my mom, but I actually love my Dad so much, I didn't want him to hurt himself by smoking.

Today I saw something that I shouldn't have. It broke my heart. I was at the bus stop accross the road from TP when I saw that familiar figure. According to my astigmatic vision observed his gestures to be lighting up a cigarette. He was accross the road, at the bus stop opposite where I was. Frantically, I took out my specs and fitted them to confirm if what I saw was really happening. To my shock, it was really him. Lighting up a cigerette as he walked out the campus towards the bus stop. My heart broke at that instant.

Images of past events flashed through and questions were raised in my head. I thought that he had ever said that he would never smoke. It simply hurt me, especially the thought of how often he would have picked up that life-damaging butt these days.

Well, it's none of my business now. I still care, but what will happen, will. I will just continue to keep my smoking friends in my prayers. Friends, if you're reading this, it's not that I love irritating you with sarcastic remarks about smoking. From the bottom of my heart, you matter to me.

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Sigh.. my modem's spoilt.. it's kinda irritating man I can only use Darling Denise's lappy like now, or use the overcrowded comp labs.