It’s like karma biting back at me. Loving someone so much,
and not getting the same measure in return. It feels like you have ran a mile,
and the other person have only inched across the room. When you give your best and expect
heartfelt appreciation, you only get a “Thanks”.
You will give so much, and love your all, until one day, you
can’t give anymore.
Why do we love? We love, to be loved in return.
In our purest of hearts and most naïve of minds, we love
more, thinking we will receive more love in return.
And when we don’t get the measure of love we think we
deserve, we put more effort in loving.
And we try even harder. The harder it is, the more desirable the other
person seems. And time after time, we stretch our capacity to love, in hopes of
reciprocation at a level we expect. What more, since so much effort had already
been put in! The cycle continues – Love, expect more love back, didn’t meet
expectation, love more, expect more….
Each time the expectation is not met, disappointment
accumulates. With each disappointment, your expectation decreases. As your
expectations drop, your efforts dip.
Finally, you come to a point where you do not expect
anymore. Then it doesn’t matter whether the person reciprocates anymore. You
have also given up loving.
